Not Helping

Unless you’re a full-time author who does both the writing and marketing side of things, much of what I say won’t make sense to you, the regular person who may not write or publish, or if you do, it’s more like a hobby than a career. Writing for me is a career. It’s all I’ve ever wanted to do and I treat it like a business. Sometimes, too much.

As a business owner, I have my ups and downs and telling me to relax and get drunk because I’m too stressed that my biggest advertiser just pulled the rug from under me and I’m now losing sales on my book is not the way to go. It actually makes me more depressed and realize that I’m not with my people. I need to find answers, not drown in alcohol. I need to get off my butt and do something.

I’ll relax when I get shit done.

I am still pissed off over little comments here and there about my reaction over FB’s decision to flag my book because of a complaint. Or something, since I never figured out why it was flagged anyway. No matter what I do, any ads or boosted post for that series gets my account disabled. DISABLED.

There’s not even a warning.

Sure, they reinstate it the next day or two without any explanation – just an oops, it’s back up now and you can do whatever it is you were doing before we disabled it. But four days after all my ads for that series have been denied, my sales have PLUMMETED. It’s so bad it makes me cry, and spend a full day making new covers for the series in question and then put them up without consulting anybody.


As beautiful as these covers are, when I looked at them next to other covers in the store, it looked like everyone else’s. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing because I’m still too depressed and upset to think objectively.

Do the new covers convey a story about a barista whose life is about to be turned upside down when secrets are revealed in Loving Ashe? I don’t think so. It looks like a contemporary romance novel. Vacuous almost, and with no substance to it. No mystery. So the couple is already together. Where’s the mystery there?

As for the Loving Riley one, let’s say that this was the image that made me think it would be perfect for Loving Riley. It conveys the struggle in their relationship and I love the way he grips her wrist. There’s dominance there, albeit it’s still got a fairy tale feel to it. I had to find a second image to match this first choice, and that’s why you have the Loving Ashe cover the way it is.

One thing that I miss about the Loving Ashe cover is that while she’s pretty, it shows how vulnerable she is and when she’s not confident about her looks, the cover helps convey it. In the new version, she’s fucking fabulous. How could anyone think themselves unworthy when they look like that? So yes, there’s a disconnect but I’ve been uploading different versions of the covers on all retailers that I now have to wait until tomorrow to upload the original versions, which are below:


I know I’m being impulsive like I always become when I’m upset. The old covers are actually perfect for the story although the new ones are also beautiful even if they’re stock photos which mean everyone and their mother will have them on their books in no time. I know I have to accept that it’s an investment to buy an exclusive picture but I also understand that I have to love it. Like really, unequivocally fucking love it. But what if you don’t? Or you kinda do like it because you paid a fortune for it but you really don’t. You know you have to like it though.

I don’t know anymore. I’ll need to sleep on it even though I already know the answer. The old covers go back.


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