We’re almost there, almost to the finish line of 2020 and I’m more than eager to get this year all done and dusted. I know it’s just a date but the way 2020 has been, I’m not taking any chances. I want to cover all my bases, even if dates are just numbers.
Because numbers still mean something.
So two more days before the year ends and it will 2021. No resolutions, at least, not yet, although I’ve already created a desktop picture for my monitor with a few reminders:
- No drama llamas.
- No social media until I get 2k words done.
- Remember your WHY.
And that last one is the most important thing for me to remember. I write for many reasons, one of them because it’s my way of exploring emotions and working through issues. It’s why I write poetry as well. But I write my books for my sons.
A few months ago, my brother said something to me that hit me hard. I can’t remember the exact words anymore but it basically had to do with all the things I gave up, like my full-time massage practice and advance massage and Thai-yoga workshops so I could drive my son to his therapies and be with him after school and summers when no program would accept him without having a one-on-one aide present (and so I’d end up being there instead). He saw me navigate the often complicated world of making sure my son would get the services he needed covered, the meetings, the paperwork, the phone calls.
Things I’d forgotten doing but in the end, helped produce a kid who is opinionated yet polite, smart and kind.
Sometimes we forget what we have and what we’ve accomplished because we only focus on the things we failed to do. In my case, in my quest to be as creative as I’d been the year before and be like my peers despite the lockdown, I’d almost forgotten what I had.
My family. My friends. My readers.
So while my resolutions (for now) aren’t exactly resolutions…
- Stay healthy
- Stay positive
- Be grateful
- Be kind
- Be a real friend
- Family is everything
… It’s a start.
And two days before the
world year ends, I think I’d rather keep things simple. After all, I’ve had to go back to the basics since coming out of my burnout and depression and so far, it’s been working out well.
I’d like to keep it that way.