Four more hours to go for us here in California before the clock strikes twelve and it will be 2018. A new beginning awaits, opportunities to be kinder and more compassionate to others and most of all, ourselves.
But who am I kidding? I’m really talking about me LOL (But here’s where I get serious… and honest so read on with caution.)
Looking back, 2017 was the year where I was hardest on myself. Although my income went up by 550% from the year before, I expected to do better every time. If I sold 20 books one day, a part of me wondered why not one more? If I had over 500 preorders, I asked myself why not a thousand like so-and-so?
And because of that, I was hardly ever happy, like really happy.
This year, I missed the joys that came with the one thing I’d always wanted to do since I was a little girl‚—writing—and every win I achieved. My attitude of “You can do better like so and so,” ruined it every time.
But one thing did make my days better and it’s my return to blogging. Like, really blogging. After finally hitting a wall sometime this year with the constant networking with other authors, marketing, promoting, and feeling like such a failure compared to so-and-so this and so-and-so that, I retreated to a world I used to know, blogging although this time instead of vague-blogging on my poetry blog, I started blogging here as me, the person who happens to also write and publish her books (and who just might happen to be a closet perfectionist). I didn’t know if what I had to say outside of my books would be interesting but I knew I had to go back to something that would allow me to connect with the world.
And so on the eve of the new year, I’d like to thank you for visiting and reading. In my books, I always write about my characters making that connection with another; but really it was just me looking for one or two… or three. So thank you for stopping by and reading. I really appreciate it.
May 2018 see a kinder, more compassionate writer in yours truly, one who’ll celebrate her stories with something special, maybe a cake. Well, given my new diet, maybe a slice… or roses (no calories).