Yesterday I thought I was on a roll. I had written 1700 words of the new story even amidst the craziness that comes after Christmas. I had my heroine, filled with so much angst I thought I’d hit the jackpot. Woohoo! I was writing my stories again.
Then I went to bed and woke up and realized I wrote utter crap. No wonder even my hero wasn’t so thrilled that I’d brought in this new girl in all her angst-filled glory and (inside my head) he gave me the side-eye as if saying, seriously?
And so I’m starting over.
After all, with the new year coming in three days, I need to tackle the house first. Tidy up for a change, eliminate clutter and do the laundry. Oh, and donate stuff we don’t use anymore so we’ll have more room.
Today, I also sat down with the kiddo and we talked about what we wanted for the new year. A new home. One that’s big enough for all of us, not a tiny home where we can barely move (But it’s in California where everything is too expensive! It’s right across the street from the Thai restaurant! Walking distance to the kid’s school Blah blah blah). But no matter what, we need a bigger house, maybe an apartment or a townhouse because I can’t be bothered with the upkeep of a yard anymore.
So I’ll probably come up with a dream board where we can cut out pictures from magazines of the things we’d like for 2018 and post them on there as a reminder that we’ve got something to work towards. The kid did say something about me writing more books so I’ll make sure to add that in there, too.
Speaking of dreams, I was reading a fellow author’s newsletter about how she’s dialing down her writing because her last two releases were disappointing. So I took a peek at those last two releases she was disappointed about and realized that with those rankings, those would be the best months for me.
Then I wondered if maybe my dreams just weren’t big enough. Are my dreams so small that what she considered a disappointment was my measure of success?
And then I remembered a mantra that I’ve been seeing lately…
So I’m doing me. After all, everyone else is taken.